Alyssa looked up as the doors to sickbay swished open and her tall and lovely CMO walked in. Alyssa had been having trouble sleeping since helping Dr. Crusher with the autopsy on Dr. Reyga. She had come to sickbay to tidy and reorganize because it helped to calm her thoughts. Beverly looked surprised to see her. She stopped just inside the doors a soft look of tired recognition played across her elegant features.
“Can’t sleep either?” Bev asked with a tiny smirk. Alyssa shrugged and smiled back shaking her head not sure what to say. The past few days had been an emotional roller-coaster. “Come on.” Beverly said tilting her head towards her office. Alyssa followed her boss. The Illumination was set to only 40% and Dr. Crusher didn’t bother to increase it; she sat down in her chair and sighed. Alyssa hesitated for a moment and then sat down in the ‘patient’ chair across from her. Her head still swam with a confusion of emotions: the anger when Bev had been kidnapped, the concern and protectiveness that followed, the relief at her return and horror at the knowledge that Dr. Crusher had killed Jo’Bril, the determination to stick by her even against regulations and the stress and fatigue of the autopsy that had proved Reyga’s death was no accident.
These were the thoughts and emotions that had been ruining Alyssa’s rest; and which had brought her to Sickbay, the one place where life was calm and orderly. Now however, sitting across from the woman who had stirred unprecedented behaviour, Alyssa felt anything but calm.
“Alyssa.” Beverly started. Nurse Ogawa felt a strange twisting in her abdomen hearing her name from Beverly’s’ lips; One simple word yet so thick with emotion. “I wanted to thank you, for helping me with Dr. Reyga. I’m sorry to have put you in that position … I would have felt horrible if you had lost your commission.” Beverly’s eyes betrayed the fact that she too had been struggling with recent events, struggling but not necessarily overcoming the turmoil.
“I … I wasn’t just following orders, I wanted to help you clear your name. I… honestly I didn’t care about my commission, all I could think about was you… helping you, I mean, prove that Reyga was murdered.” Alyssa put her hands on the edge of the desk to steady herself and remind herself to stay in control and not reveal too much. This was her boss and she had developed a raging crush on her. Alyssa was far from a prude but she had never felt anything but friendship for any woman before. Her feelings for Dr. Crusher made her feel like an inept teenager totally out of her depths. Beverly leaned forward and took hold of one of Alyssa’s hands enfolding it between both of her own. She smiled and her face became a little brighter, Alyssa felt extremely good about that.
“It’s not like you to throw regulations to the wind, I appreciate it.” Beverly squeezed her hand ever so lightly. Alyssa felt faint.
“I only did it for you, because I believed in you, I mean I … I was sure your instincts were correct…” Alyssa knew she should leave before she said something really stupid. “So you shouldn’t feel bad about it, I knew full well what I was doing.” She gave Beverly a quick friendly squeeze and slowly pulled her hand away desperately ignoring the arousal that was flooding her senses. She stood up abruptly. Dr. Crusher looked at her curiously. “I’m going to try to get some sleep Doctor. Are you going to be okay?” Bev glanced away from her.
Silence hung between them for several moments. “Doctor?”
“I killed him.” She said quietly. Alyssa felt a surge of protectiveness and fought the urge to hug her.
“It was self defense!” She said.
“Was it? It could have been different!... I could have …”
“Beverly.” Alyssa knew she was going out on a limb by using her first name, “You can’t punish yourself for a reflex action, your body was in survival mode.” Beverly jumped up from her chair and strode around the desk furious.
“Do No Harm, godammit Alyssa, I’m a doctor!”
“He was going to kill you wasn’t he?” Alyssa tried to stay calm as Bev was pacing angrily back and forth in the small space of her office. “It was a completely natural response; no one can fault you for that!”
“I can… how can I reconcile that with who I am?!” Beverly stopped pacing; her shoulders slumped with guilt, her eyes lost in turmoil.
“You have nothing to feel guilty about!”
“Then why was I relieved of duty?” Alyssa grabbed Beverly’s arms to stop her frantic gesturing. She felt a stab of pain seeing such anguish in those blue eyes.
“You’ve been reinstated!”
“Maybe that was a mistake.” She pulled away and turned towards the desk. Alyssa looked at her profile, her lovely cheekbones framed with riotous red hair, the arc of her eyebrow over her intelligent eyes that seemed to be searching the opposite wall for some sign or meaning. She reached out and gently caressed the doctor’s arm.
“How could it be a mistake Beverly? You have saved countless lives, including the Captain. In the time I’ve known you I’ve seen how caring you are, how seriously you take that promise to ‘Do no harm.’ You are the most ethical person I know. You live your morals everyday. I can’t imagine a better example of a truly good Doctor.” Beverly dropped her chin and turned her head a little to look into Alyssa’s eyes. “You just have to remember that you’re human.”
Suddenly Alyssa found herself wrapped up in a tight embrace. Beverly had one arm around her torso and the other around her shoulders. For a few blissful moments Alyssa abandoned all her fears and pressed her face against Beverly’s neck, her own arms wrapped snugly around the Chief Medical Officer.
“I was so worried.” Alyssa murmured, listening to the thump of Beverly’s heartbeat. “scared, and angry … if he had hurt you…I’d have killed him myself.” Beverly pulled back and looked at her thoroughly searching her face.
The anguish had disappeared from her eyes, replaced with amazement. She wrapped her arms around Alyssa once more, this time sliding her fingers up into her hair and holding her a little closer than before.
“Sometimes, Alyssa I don’t know what I’d do without you.” Beverly whispered into her ear. When the Doctor made a half-laughing gasp Alyssa felt a new wave of desire rush through her. She knew she should leave but she didn’t want to move, couldn’t force herself out of this exhilarating embrace. Finally Beverly pulled back, just a little; just enough so Alyssa would have no choice but to face her, no choice but to feel her breath across her lips. Beverly watched as Alyssa stared longingly at her lips, watched her lips part and heard the words start to form over her tongue. Before Alyssa could say something reasonable and proper and final, Beverly leaned down and pressed their lips together. She closed her eyes to enjoy the thrill of such honest connection and desire. Alyssa squeezed her closer and the kiss deepened, lips tasted teeth and tongues explored each other. Alyssa’s hand was in her hair gently cradling her head maintaining their kiss. It was delicious, liberating, and right. Then suddenly Alyssa was gone, pulled back, out of her reach, gasping looking at her with torment in her eyes.
“Oh God, I’m Sorry.” She looked completely horrified and took another step back towards the door.
“Alyssa wait.” Beverly said, “I’m the one who should apologize. I’m sorry.”
Alyssa stopped at the office doorway. She shook her head.
“I don’t know what’s up or down lately.” She said without turning around. “Since you went missing … I …I’ve been having a lot of strange thoughts.” Alyssa turned around avoiding Beverly’s eyes.
“We care about each other Alyssa, as colleagues we’ve become very close … I feel like I’ve just taken advantage of that. I’m so sorry. It was inappropriate.” Beverly was desperately trying to reconcile a lifetime of heterosexuality with the immense affection and desire she was feeling for her Head Nurse.
“No, Beverly, you didn’t take advantage … I wanted to kiss you. You are all I’ve been able to think about for a week.” Alyssa leaned against the transparent wall and hugged herself, she was feeling exposed and self conscious, and confused. “I’ve never fallen in love with another woman before I’m … confused.”
“Me too.” Beverly admitted.
“You felt it too?” Alyssa looked shyly into her eyes.
“You know I did.” Beverly held her gaze.
“But I’ve never …”
“Neither have I.”
“Then how can this be happening?”
“I suppose it’s just proof that human sexuality can’t be contained within simplistic semantic boundaries.” Beverly said with a sad smirk.
“I’ll say.” Alyssa smiled and started to relax a little. “So what you’re saying is I’m mostly heterosexual but in this case I’m Beverlysexual?” She tried to make it a lighthearted joke.
“I like the sounds of that.” Beverly’s laugh was husky. Alyssa felt herself losing control of her desires again. She felt her face flush. Beverly was staring at her lips again.
“So what do we do about this? We work together, you’re my superior…”
“I know.” Beverly said simply, looking into her eyes.
“We Can’t.” Alyssa was chewing her bottom lips and staring at her boss. Her gaze traveled down one side of Beverly’s beautiful body and up the other. When their eyes reconnected she could not deny the spark of desire.
“We shouldn’t.” Beverly corrected her in a low voice. She stepped closer.
“Alyssa.” A plea? A demand? A benediction. Alyssa’s heart started to thump, the skin over her hips started to tingle. She wanted to throw herself at Beverly, kiss her until she felt dizzy. Tear off her clothes. Touch her everywhere. Beverly appeared to be struggling with her emotions too; her breathing was deeper, she licked her lips. “I want to touch you.” Beverly whispered. Their eyes searched each other wildly, but they barely moved. “Don’t you want me to?”
“Yes.” Alyssa’s voice cracked a little. Beverly reached towards her.
“I want to rub my thumb along your forearm.” Alyssa looked down to see the doctors hand doing just that, “make you shiver” even through her sleeve the tingles sent a warm flush of longing directly to Alyssa’s core. “I want to kiss the little creases on the inside of your elbow.” She watched Beverly’s head dip down as she lifted Alyssa’s arm to meet her lips. Alyssa had to steady herself against the wall to avoid fainting. Her nipples were hard and throbbing for Beverly’s lips.
“I want my hands sliding under your jacket.” She told the beautiful doctor. As she proceeded to dip her hands under the fabric and slide over Beverly’s uniform covered ribs. Beverly looked up as her lips left Alyssa’s arm and was struck by the fire burning in her Head Nurse’s dark eyes. She stood up and fought to remain in control. She so wanted to press the smaller woman against the wall, feel their bodies fuse. “I want to touch your beautiful face.” Having pulled Beverly closer Alyssa reached up with her right hand to stroke those beautiful features. Feeling the nervous tremors of Alyssa’s fingertips on her cheek Beverly was overcome with both tenderness and lust.
“I want your hands in my hair Alyssa.” Beverly braced herself against the wall with one hand and leaned towards the other woman but kept their bodies apart torturing herself with anticipation. She closed her eyes for a moment to focus on how wonderful she felt. It had been a very long time since Beverly had been so overcome with desire; she didn’t want it to end too quickly.
“Please take off my jacket.” Alyssa quickly complied and Beverly leaned over her again one hand on the wall the other poised to touch Alyssa’s neck. Eyes locked on each other; Alyssa placed her hands on Beverly’s hips as Beverly’s soft fingertips traced along her collarbone and up her neck. A low gasp passed between them. Alyssa felt Beverly’s hips push against her hands; just enough pressure to make Alyssa feel it, and then she pulled back. Alyssa was amazed at the other woman’s self control. Her mind was filled with images of the many ways she wanted to make love to Beverly. She was truly shocked at some of her own thoughts. She slid her hand into Beverly’s glorious red hair and enjoyed the view as Beverly arched her neck and pressed into her caress. While the Doctors eyes were still closed Alyssa slowly slid her other hand up from hip to breast, letting her thumb play over Beverly’s obviously aroused nipple. She was rewarded with a delicious “mmmHmmm.” Alyssa leaned forward the tip of her nose brushing Beverly’s chin. She couldn’t hold back any longer, she had to speak.
“Beverly, I want to kiss you for hours. I literally want to tear your clothes off. I want to taste your skin. I want to make you wet. I’ve never…” Alyssa’s lips were suddenly occupied as Beverly claimed her with a scorching kiss. She felt the blast of Beverly’s desire and enjoyed the feeling of their bodies writhing together against the wall. Crackling electricity seemed to build with each caress; sensation flooded their minds leaving no room for doubt or reservations.
Alyssa’s whole body throbbed and she felt an answering pulse from Beverly.
After many long minutes of kissing they gasped apart for air, Beverly rubbed her cheek over Alyssa’s; it was at once incredibly sweet and sensuous.
“Alyssa,” Beverly’s breathy whisper made her shiver. “You have … made me … so very wet!” Alyssa too, was more aroused than she had ever thought possible. She pulled Beverly into another deep kiss and started to work on removing the doctor’s pants. All she wanted was to uncover that wetness, dive into it until she was immersed, suffused with Beverly. The doctor had more to say when their lips parted; “Alyssa I don’t want … not here. Please let’s go to my quarters.” The smaller woman seemed to smolder with need.
“Then we’d better hurry.” Alyssa said pushing Beverly away and then grabbing her hand and pulling her out of the office and through the door. Beverly started to say something about her jacket which they had left crumpled on the floor but then decided it wasn’t important. They hurried to the lift and once inside Alyssa snapped “Deck 8.” Before the doors were even closed she had pressed Beverly against the wall and was once again kissing her passionately. Her thigh pressed between Beverly’s and the older woman felt suddenly intoxicated.
Then suddenly the glorious pressure was gone and Beverly opened her eyes. She had to blink a few times to focus and when she did she saw a very confused Commander Data looking at her as Alyssa pulled her by the hand down the corridor.
“Doctor Crusher? Are you unwell?” He asked as they passed.
“Never better!” She called back to him. She was laughing quietly as she opened the door to her quarters. Once inside Alyssa hugged her from behind cupping her breasts and pressing her mound into Beverly’s bottom.
“Beverly, you make me want to do things I’ve never imagined before.”
“Good!” was all the doctor said as she guided Alyssa’s left hand under the waistband of her pants. Alyssa’s right hand hurried to undo the restraining zipper as her other fingers slid over Beverly’s warm curls and into the soaking wet folds of her pussy. Beverly half grunted and pressed her butt against Alyssa’s hips. Once again Alyssa’s own thoughts shocked her with the many ways she wanted to penetrate Beverly. Beverly quickly divested herself of her top and bra and turned to rid Alyssa of her clothing as well. Alyssa kept her hand moving over Beverly’s slick centre while they kissed and fumbled with her top. When they were both naked from the waist up they paused to look at each other. Alyssa’s nipples were deep pink and pointed upwards from her perfectly rounded little breasts. Beverly’s breasts were slightly larger and her light brown elongated nipples pointed straight at her lover. Alyssa thought they looked perfect for sucking. She continued to tease Beverly’s labia and leaned down to take one of her fat nipples in her mouth. Beverly was transfixed by the amazing combination of watching and feeling Alyssa’s mouth not to mention the throb her hand was causing. Not sure how much longer she could remain standing Beverly began walking backwards towards the sofa Alyssa followed switching to Beverly’s other breast and pushing her fingers a little deeper to tease the taller woman’s opening. The nipple popped out of her mouth with a smack as Beverly half fell onto the sofa laughing, Alyssa managed to keep her hand in contact and when Beverly had lain down comfortably she pushed her two middle fingers deep inside her. Beverly groaned loudly. She smiled at the gorgeous redhead who reached for her. Alyssa shook her head a little and Beverly looked at her questioningly.
“Pant’s off.” Alyssa stated. Beverly lifted her hips and soon was reclining completely naked. She reached up as Alyssa leaned over her and wrestled the smaller woman’s pant’s down her thighs then pushed them further down with one of her feet. Hot hands cupped Alyssa’s cool buttocks and encouraged her to lie on top of her lover. Sliding her fingers slightly out she moved one of her thighs over her hand as her nipples pressed into Beverly’s soft breasts. She felt slightly awkward with her arm straight along Beverly’s torso to keep her hand buried where she most wanted to be.
“Is this Ok? Is it working?” She asked. Beverly nodded an enthusiastic ‘yes’ and pulled her in for another long and glorious kiss. She shifted to pull Alyssa more completely on top of her and bent her knee to press her thigh against Alyssa’s copious wetness.
“Oh My! Alyssa!” Beverly reveled in the knowledge and proof of Alyssa’s desire. Soon they were thrusting against each other with total abandon gasping and grunting encouragement and amazement. Alyssa loved being on top of Beverly, loved the feel of their breasts pressed together and the insistent pressure of Beverly’s thigh. She was amazed at how wet she was and how perfect it felt being inside Beverly. The gorgeous red head was an enthusiastic and athletic lover. Alyssa reveled in the thrusting of Beverly’s hips, the rhythmic tightening of her most intimate muscles and the heady scent of their mutual arousal. She felt Beverly’s grip on her bottom tighten just before Beverly’s muscles clamped firmly around her fingers. Her breathing became ragged and Alyssa watched in amazement as Beverly’s orgasm shook through her. She looked beautiful and feral. Alyssa continued to plunge in and out of Beverly’s wetness keeping the heel of her hand over Beverly’s clit; she felt her lover’s body become taut. Beverly reached up to pull Alyssa’s mouth onto her own and suck hard on her tongue needing more of Alyssa filling her. Beverly completely gave her self over to sensation every muscle incessantly working to prolong her pleasure. Each explosive orgasm thrust her into a new level of arousal. Every part of her was connected to Alyssa; every millimeter swelling for more and more contact. Suddenly the constant aching tightness went slack and Beverly’s hips fell back down onto the sofa, Alyssa stayed inside and a moment later felt a rippling squeeze. Over and over Beverly’s hips surged up and down and she started to moan in a low constant tone. Alyssa felt the rhythmic pulsing over and over again as Beverly’s mouth gasped away from her, a look of shock flushed over her face. Eventually the surging of Beverly’s hips slowed and stopped. She opened her eyes to see wide-eyed amazement and shimmering sweat on Alyssa’s face. “How did you? … What? … that was incredible Alyssa.”
“No, Beverly, you’re incredible.” Alyssa leaned forward to kiss her voluptuous lover which caused her fingers to slip out of Beverly’s still throbbing core. Beverly’s surprised gasp was interrupted by Alyssa’s lips and she was overcome with a craving to thrust inside Alyssa and watch her lose control.
The two women continued kissing while they wriggled around on the narrow sofa. Eventually Beverly maneuvered on top of Alyssa and began a slow insistent erotic torture. Her mouth explored and delighted the smaller woman while her hands massaged and teased her. Beverly had never imagined how extraordinary making love to another woman could be. It was exquisite; more carnal and intoxicating than anything she had ever experienced. Her body still tingled from multiple orgasms, she felt spent and yet exhilarated. She scraped her fingernails over Alyssa’s hip while simultaneously sucking and nibbling her nipple. Alyssa’s groans of delight flooded Beverly’s pussy, she loved feeling so wet, wanted Alyssa inside her again, but not as much as she wanted to plunge herself into the depths of Alyssa’s wetness. As she slowly worked her way down Alyssa’s torso her lover’s hips began a slow gyrating. Beverly was kissing the warm valley of flesh from Alyssa’s hip to her bush when Alyssa gasped. Beverly’s hard nipple had slid between Alyssa’s slick folds and caused her to jerk with surprise. Beverly shifted her weight a little to increase the pressure and looked up to see her lover’s response. Alyssa felt a strange soft fullness spreading her and a hard nudge over her clit. She looked up to see what Beverly was doing.
“How? How are you doing that?” she lifted her head and asked her lover.
“It just happened and you liked it…so…”
“It’s so … full, fuck it feels so kinky! I can’t believe it! It’s so good.” Alyssa lay her head back down and enjoyed the bizarre new thrill.
Beverly was thoroughly turned on and after a few more moments of breast-fucking leaned up to kiss Alyssa. Instead of kissing her lips Alyssa moved down and pulled Beverly’s wet nipple into her mouth. She groaned at the taste of her own wetness and pressed her pussy against Beverly’s thigh.
“You’re so dirty Alyssa.” Beverly husked as her lover started to thrust against her. As much as she loved Alyssa writhing underneath her she wanted something else first. “Please Alyssa, I need to taste you.” Alyssa stilled her hips and released Bev’s nipple from her mouth. She looked up to see the longing in her sparkling blues eyes.
“Yes!” she said, pulling Beverly into a searing kiss filled with the tempting taste of Alyssa’s arousal. When they broke off their kiss Beverly quickly resumed her position between Alyssa’s thighs and reverently spread her apart pushing the coils of black hair out of the way to expose her beautifully glistening sex. Beverly hesitated, she was entranced and nervous, she wanted this badly but something in the back of her mind was warning her that once she had taken this step there might be no going back for her. Beverly swallowed her fears and took the plunge into delicious pleasure. She thought of the things she enjoyed and tried to replicate them for Alyssa. The tangy taste of her lover filled her senses as she teased Alyssa’s swollen clit. She swirled her fingers in copious wetness and glanced up to see Alyssa’s hands pleasuring her own nipples. That sight aroused Beverly even more and she started to suck hard on the delightful little erection of Alyssa’s clit. She started penetrating her lover with one finger but soon Alyssa was asking for more and Beverly could not deny her. After several minutes of thrusting and sucking Alyssa was insisting on more so Beverly gently added a third finger and slowly plunged into her lover. With every sense heightened even the feel of sweat trickling down her own back had Beverly tingling with lust. Alyssa spread her legs, hooking one up over the back of the sofa and letting the other stretch towards the floor. Beverly could feel her lover opening up and moaned in appreciation. She felt honored and amazed at the trust and vulnerability Alyssa was displaying. She searched her imagination for ways to make this experience even more pleasurable.
Alyssa was overcome with desire. She had never experienced anything so totally carnal and consuming. Just when she thought she would explode with pleasure Beverly would make a slight change and lead her down a completely new path of delight. Her entire existence centered on Beverly’s mouth and hands; she felt like she could go on like this for hours. Already she had lasted long beyond what she thought was humanly possible. The sustained throbbing pleasure she had been enjoying started to change. She had already had a few quick quaking orgasms, now waves of energy were emanating from her core out to her extremities like her whole self was coming. She felt heat spreading over her chest and up her neck, her abdominal muscles began contracting, she glanced down to see pure lust shining in Beverly’s eyes as they locked with hers.
She connected the waves of pleasure to the delightful movements of Beverly inside her and suddenly Alyssa felt like she returned to her body with a jolt.
She screamed and completely lost control clutching at the sofa for some sort of purchase. Beverly used her free hand to hold on as Alyssa’s hips bucked wildly. With each thrust of Beverly’s hand Alyssa’s spine curved lifting her shoulders up and then snapping back. Beverly released a jagged moan as Alyssa’s movements threatened to throw them both to the floor. Lights exploded in Beverly’s mind as she strove to maintain contact. After several minutes of thrusting Alyssa’s whole body went taut and vibrated. Beverly lifted her head to gasp for air and a flood of sweet smelling liquid splashed over her chest. Alyssa went limp and lay gasping. She shuddered as Beverly slowly slid out of her and climbed up to wrap her in her arms. They lay together in silence until their breathing slowed to normal. Then Beverly stood up and pulled her sated lover towards the warm nest of her bed.